Thursday, April 18, 2013

IN TOO DEEP book trailer

We are down to less than two months until the release of IN TOO DEEP! I was expecting to be excited (which I am) but wasn't expecting to have 3 or 4 swarms of butterflies in my stomach every time I think about June 6th getting closer and closer!

I'm not worried people won't like the book. It's such a subjective thing, I know everyone will have their own opinions of it and that's fine. I expect that. As a former art student, I have a thick skin from all the verbal critiques of my work I've had to sit through. So, although I would love if EVERY reader gave it five stars, I'm being realistic. In my honest opinion, the majority of you will love it.

My nerves about its release aren't based on subjective opinions of the book. I think, as a debut author, the butterflies come from putting my heart (literally) on parade for everyone one of you to see inside. Sure, IN TOO DEEP is fiction, but that doesn't mean it didn't come directly from my heart. Ask any author, the characters they create are REAL in their minds. No. No. No. We are not loons. We know they aren't REAL in the physical sense but we know so much about them, they feel real. Writing 96,000 words about Gracie, Noah and Jake opened up a private world for me to watch unfold. Their private world. Something that took on a life of its own. And now I am sharing those private moments with all of you.

Most of you who read non-stop know what it means to have a "Book Hangover." It's when you walk around for a couple days after finishing a book you loved and you try and wean yourself from the connection you have with those characters. You may have only met those characters three days prior when you opened the book but now they are a part of your life. Ask any voracious reader and they will tell you that it happens often.

Well Gracie, Noah and Jake have been part of the creative section of my brain for YEARS. I have spent years with their story rolling around in my head. I have gotten to know them so well I could tell you what color polish Gracie prefers on her toes, what Noah's favorite food is and how many children Jake wants to have one day. And none of those specifics are in the book.

I am SO excited to introduce each character to you on June 6th when my heart goes out to the world! But the butterflies will be there...for a while.

Thank you for your support. For your tweets and RTs. Thank you for posting links to me on your facebook. YOU are helping me grown my fan base each time you do that and it's an awesome feeling for a newbie author to have so much support even BEFORE my book is released.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart!
I am so excited to share the IN TOO DEEP book trailer with you! It gives me butterflies...hope you feel them, too!

---this is a fanmade video, no claims have been made

on the images, clips, and songs used, credit goes to
the original owners---**


Tuesday, April 16, 2013

Sneak Peek of IN TOO DEEP!!

I have been head first in my content edits for IN TOO DEEP and barely come up to breathe during the day. Seriously, the last of my kids get on the bus at 8:30 and that's typically when I've been plopping down in front of my lap top. The other day I got up two times to pee and that was it until 4:00.
I have to say, this is an awesome experience! Even better than I imagined over the last seven years of trying to break into this business. I am really hoping the gals at Sapphire Star Publishing will keep me around because I am in Heaven!
So, my belly is full of breakfast, I have showered (which usually takes a back seat to Gracie and Noah) and I have been listening to music since before I left my bed this morning. So, it's time to get to work. I love my commute. :) But since it has been more than a couple days since I last posted, I thought I would give you a SNEAK PEEK to hold you over while I am busy today fishing more of this story from my brain.

Pulled from the middle of...IN TOO DEEP

The water lapped up further onto my legs and the strong undertow pulled me toward the waves. I knew if I gave up now I would be swallowed by a wave that would roll me more violently than the first. I couldn’t let the ocean take me. I dug my fingers into the sand and pulled against the current. I wasn’t sure if I was strong enough to make it but I wasn’t going to die without trying my hardest to pull myself away from the depths that had a hold on me before. I reached out for the one thing I knew could save me at that moment…

            “Gracie. Are you okay?  Please, say something!” Jake’s voice was sleepy and panicked. I knew he would see my number on his phone just in case I couldn’t speak. My mouth was trying to hold in the sobs while my brain formed the words.

            “I…I…” I couldn’t. I didn’t even know where to start. I wasn’t even sure I wanted to admit to being so stupid and thinking that ringing in this special birthday with Noah would be anything but painful.

            “You’re scaring me. Please just say something. Tell me what’s wrong.”

            I spent the next hour vomiting all of the night’s hell to Jake. Most of the time he was the quiet listener, but I could hear the vile anger in his voice when he did speak. Jake’s anger didn’t scare me like Noah’s did. I wasn’t afraid of losing Jake, I knew I couldn’t. There was nothing I could do that would cause him to walk away. Having someone like that in my life was the only thing holding me together.

            “I am so sorry, baby girl. I wish I was there to hold you so you could get some sleep.”

            “Me, too.” That’s when I realized this was what he meant when he said he would take me however he could have me. He told me he was in love with me, and now I was once again detailing the further breaking of my heart by his former roommate. He was putting his own heart second because I was sure it was killing him to hear all the details of my night if he truly did love me. He was putting me first. He would be my friend first, even if I couldn’t love him back. I had no words for the kind of selflessness I didn’t know existed before Jake.

            When I realized how my pain over Noah must be hurting him, I decided to stop. I needed to turn it off and make sure he was okay before we hung up. I shouldn’t have called him. Now my heart was breaking for the two most important guys in my life. One because he hurt me and one because I may be hurting him. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. Sleep. I just needed to sleep.

            “Are you sure you’re okay? I can stay on the phone with you as long as you need me to.”

            “No, Jake. You’ve already done so much. I can’t thank you enough for what you do for my heart.”

            “I love you. You’re my best friend. I am always here for you. You know that.”

            “I know. Thank you.”

            “No thanks necessary. That’s what friends do.” He was assuring me that his ‘I love you’ was intended to be friendly and not guilt inducing. How could I tell him how much I loved him without having to qualify it as ‘just as friends?’

            “I love our friendship, Jake, I don’t know what I would do without you.”

            “Well, the feeling is mutual.”

            I wasn’t sure how I landed such a beautiful friend. But his unconditional friendship was stunning. I wasn’t sure if I could ever reciprocate what he gave me but I would die trying if he ever needed me the way I needed him. But he’d never be as stupid as I had been.

            “Go to sleep, sweet girl. You need to get some rest.”

            “Goodnight, Jake.”

SQUEEEEEEEE!!!!! I can't wait for you to know what comes before AND after this scene!


Monday, April 1, 2013

Red Jumpsuit Apparatus... WAIT!


As you all know - I am a FREAK when it comes music but even more of a FREAK when it comes to lead singers. It's no secret.

There's no need to warn my husband, he knows. He expects me to zone out once we get to concerts and live shows...he also knows he's my FAVORITE guy on the planet so there's no jealousy involved.

Weeeelllll, there is this one band...he gets a little angsty about. But that's because I smooched the lead singer in a private backstage moment at the end of one of their shows (I was in college). Yeah, he gets a little hung up on that one. So, I won't mention WHAT band that was...could start a riot.

ANYWAY, I digress...

Because I am always listening to music and finding new bands, I can't figure out how I have missed RED JUMPSUIT APPARATUS for all this time? They are totally my kind of band!

One of my awesome Twitter friends who happens to also be an amazing book blogger shared a song with me that she thought could be the TITLE SONG on a SOUNDTRACK should IN TOO DEEP ever be made into a movie. (breathe, breathe)

I wanted to share that song with you because she couldn't have hit closer to the bullseye on this one.
@BooksOverBoys introduced me to RED JUMPSUIT APPARATUS and their song FACEDOWN. I am floored. I can picture Jake standing toe-to-toe with Noah, saying,

Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
I can also picture Jake holding Gracie by the shoulders as she cries, saying,
Hey, girl, you know you drive me crazy
one look puts the rhythm in my hand.
Still I'll never understand why you hang around
I see what's going down.
WOW! Just WOW!

So, on that note (ha ha, you like that pun? *insert dorky grin here*) I wanted to share these guys and their amazing song with you.

Ladies and Gentlemen, I am so thrilled to introduce you to RED JUMPSUIT APPARATUS singing FACEDOWN! (You probably already know them, but don't tell me...let me keep thinking I introduced them to you :D)

(and if you have any songs you think would be perfect if IN TOO DEEP would ever be on the big screen, let me know and I will feature your choice, too)